I JUST CANT BE TAMED!!

I LOVED THIS VIDEO!!!!

Fuck This Shit!

For the past three months I have been gaining wait going crazy crying everyday over my ex. I spent 4 years of my life making him my everything doing everything to make him happy. He pays me back by cheating and leaving me. He still tells me he loves me till this day and I keep letting him crawl back into my life. But I can't keep doing this to myself! I love him with everything that I have but I need to love myself more. So I'm going on a spring cleaning of my life! I used to be so social , I had an amazing body , confidence up the roof! I also used to have my life together. So now I am going to stop being an ugly muffin and totally transform myself to a hot cupcake with sprinkles! I plan on losing all the weight that I gained , getting new hair , and just start putting myself first. I also will be stopping all contact with him and his family compeletly. It's going to be hard but I know I can do this.  Ive also mentioned previously that im going to redo my closet and Ive been slacking but now im really going to do it.I'm going to take my meds properly and just get my
shit together . I'm giving myself until July to become perfect in my eyes. So wish me luck on my quest. Im off to the mall to start buying new spring clothes...

xoxo agyness

WTF

So as I was  scanning Teenvogue.com as I normally due so, when I came across an article about Selena Gomez line for Kmart!!! I am honestly seriously disguested. I really do not understand why celeberities think hey im famous why dont I create a fashion line. All I have to say is thank god I am not a Kmart shopper. 

Blah!Blah!Blah!

Ok so I totally have been neglecting my blog!! Maybe it's because I'm a little depressed at the moment ;-( it's like somebody decided to pour milk on my little cookie and now it's all crumbling into little pieces! My ex is still on my mind it's so difficult because he keeps telling me he loves me but finds every excuse not to be together . He's so full of shit honestly. I also had a meltdown last week and ended back in the kukus nest! It was the longest 4 days of my life. Like I honestly felt like it was a waste of time because it did nothing for me ! But on a sadder note I did relapse and cut again. I was like FML I feel so shitty for doing it. Like after I did I'm not going to lie it did calm me down but then i was like what did I just do! I've been working so hard to stop . But I'm just going to work harder at getting better. I would totally love if any of you dolls have some advice on how to stop cutting????

Xoxo Agyness

Best Movie Ever!!!!!!

So I finally saw Alice in Wonderland on Thursday and I must say I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tim Burton is a freaking genius. You dolls have to watch it!

Hairy Hairy funny

So I'm seriously thinking of trying this hair style it's super cute! Oh btw I have a crush on a guy so I really need to look amazing

Shoe Heaven!!

I need to know who makes these shoes because they are beyond feroish !!!

Ja'dore

                                                                                

FML

Ok so I have some not so great news to share with you. As you know I was diagnosed 3months ago with clinical depression . Well turns out Im crazier than I thought. My therapist has been taking to my psychatrist and so my psychatrist ran some test based on what my therapist said. I have been rediagnosed with having Boderline Personailty disorder and Im also Bipolar. Welcome to my crazy world. FML . So now im on new medication and I just feel like saying FUCK THIS SHIT! but im going to be a good little girl and contiune going to therapy one a week and taking my meds everyday.

P.S. i really hate guys at the moment just thought you should know that

Enough Said

Ja'dore Elephants!

How precious is this!!! I fucking love elephants!!!!!!

Leather and Ciagrettes

ok so I dont smoke but everytime I look at these cigarettes and all the pretty colors I must say I am beyond tempted to puff puff cough cough! giggle giggle. I know they are extremely bad for my health but who cares when your smoking a pink cigarette right???????????????

Best Dressed at the Kids Choice Awards goes to...

Rihanna!!!!! She looks super feroish!! Lets just talk about her makeup for a moment. I think this is the best Ive seen her look in a while now. Everything from her hair, to he makeup, to her accessories are beautiful! I think I just formed a girl crush <3

Obey the rules ...

Giggle this is hialrious!!!

Crap 

On this seroquel 200mg and I feel like shit! My head feels like it wnts 2 explode. I'm so dizzy I can barely walk straight ... FML!!!! Just thought I would share that with you ...

My Room part 1

These are little snapshots of my Mannequin in my room. Her name is Claire...Yes thats a real knife. Hey im crazy lol!!!!

Dear Boy Who Broke My Heart!

Me Me Me

Me!!!

Im In there Like Swimwear

Ok so I think Serena Williams looks hideous in this bathing suit. I just think shes disgusting but thats my opinion! However I love this bathing suit!. Its a really great price too. Its $198 Gottex Reflection Embroidered One Shoulder Bathing Suit. I can see myself wearing this bathing suit with a big Floppy Hat and some adorable Lanvin sandals.

Accessories for this look

Eugenia Kim Honey Sunhat $ 275.00

Mosley Tribes Eyewear Lyndel Sunglasses $ 180.00

Lanvin Pom-Pom Sandals $585.00

Skin Tight,Cant Breathe, Its Leather Baby

                                               I heart Miley Cyrus in this leather dress at her movie
                                              premiere.

Emma Watson in Christopher Kane

I think I want to get a cute leather dress!!! Nothing says Im single come take me home then a fly chicka in a leather dress...

                                    

Shopbob                            

Veda

Electric Leather Dress
$385.00

Bag Lady

via Chicintuition.com

Can You Handle It? Wanna Video ME

I am the biggest lady gaga fan!! I think she's a fucking Genius and Feroish as biotch!!! Now im sure all of you have seen the telephone video and that shit Blew My Mind. It is epic!!! But I just heard how some parents have got their panties in a bunch over this video and want it banned! OUR YOU CRAZY???????  I hate ignorant people who arent open to peoples artistic creations. lol  They can stick their opinions in a juice box and suck it dry ...hahaha

Time is Money baby !

So I don't know if this is just me but I hate waiting!!!!! Especially when I made an appointment. So as you all know I am suffering from a panic disorder and depression. Me waiting is not a goo thing because it causes me to panic! I'm at my doctors office waiting to see my therapist for my weekly visits and i have been sitting in the lobby for 40 min past my appointment time already! I just think it's so fucking ridiculous how I have to wait so long and I'm paying for this. This is my time . I'm just so annoyed with the world at the moment! Just thought I would share that with you!

This has been a public service announcement about how much doctors being late Pisses Me the Fuck Off!!!!!!!

Hey Wang Your so fine Your so Fine you blow my mind!

Images Via Jack&jill blog

I'm dying to get my hands on those alexander Wang boots!! They are beyond ferosih!

Giggle Giggle!!!!

Help Please!!!!

As u know I'm getting a puppy on Saturday.. Only 3 more days!!! I am beyond excited. I just don't know what am I going to name her. She's an American bulldog and is all white with brown spots on her ears. I want to know what you think I should name her! So email me all suggestions for names??? Please and thank you Dolls

Who cares if sweets rot your teeth?

Long lengthy Post

I am doomed by eternal need to be loved. The feelings of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my Brain and it feels if Ive been shot. I close my eyes scared to face reality. If I open them they might see me. I search and search and jump from petal to petal letting the blood drip down my cold metal. I ask who loves me and I hear silence. I ask who needs me and I hear not a sound. I ask who'll kill me I raise my hand freely. I'll kill me because I hate me. I am doomed by my eternal need to be loved. The feeling of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels if Ive been shot. I look around and it's empty the only person I see is me. I ask myself how can this be? Why does everyone abandon me. Should I stay and fight or I should drown in my blood tonight. Happiness is my guest. Being in love is what I do best. But the person I should love the most is nothing but a lonely ghost. I am doomed by my eternal
need to be loved. the feelings of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels as if I've been shot. Lies are what fills their eyes slowly they are now blind. Because they can't see my pain, they can't feel the blade. My thoughts become Isane and they go on with their day. I slowly seize to exist. My life is constant battle and my wounds lay upon my wrist. I didn't want it to be like this. Relationships are not fun they are a necessity. A sick obbession that laud within me. I smile through a thousand tears. I laugh with a million fears. I am my own worst enemy. I am doomed my eternal need to be loved. The feelings of lonelyness haunt my every thoughts. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels as if I've been shot. And I only have but one thought , Hello Darkness

Hello Darkness

FASHION ISNT WHO I AM ITS WHAT I DO. IT'S WHAT MAKES MY SHIT SPARKLE

Lazy Monday Outfit

Go Couture Yourself!!

Tattoo My Spine Please

I want this same tattoo so bad but on the beginning of my spine!!! A cupcake on the spine and everything will be fine

Doc Will Ill be Feroish?

Quick update on my illness. I am still on my meds . My pyschatrist increased my dosage by 50mg and I have to say I do see an improvement with my overall mood. I am a lot less bitchy and anti-social. I actually smiled for the first time in weeks. So I'm making some improvments. Slow and steady will win this mind race.

Ra Ra Ra Gaga

This pic reminds me of when I had pink hair in my junior year of highschool. Oh the smell of pink dye is coming back ...

Chanel anyone?

So I've been craving something sweet. These bad boys defintely will hit the spot!!! Who doesn't want a Chanel cupcake?? Anybody ? I didn't think so lol ;-)

Theme of my life!!!!