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I am doomed by eternal need to be loved. The feelings of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my Brain and it feels if Ive been shot. I close my eyes scared to face reality. If I open them they might see me. I search and search and jump from petal to petal letting the blood drip down my cold metal. I ask who loves me and I hear silence. I ask who needs me and I hear not a sound. I ask who'll kill me I raise my hand freely. I'll kill me because I hate me. I am doomed by my eternal need to be loved. The feeling of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels if Ive been shot. I look around and it's empty the only person I see is me. I ask myself how can this be? Why does everyone abandon me. Should I stay and fight or I should drown in my blood tonight. Happiness is my guest. Being in love is what I do best. But the person I should love the most is nothing but a lonely ghost. I am doomed by my eternal
need to be loved. the feelings of lonelyness haunts my every thought. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels as if I've been shot. Lies are what fills their eyes slowly they are now blind. Because they can't see my pain, they can't feel the blade. My thoughts become Isane and they go on with their day. I slowly seize to exist. My life is constant battle and my wounds lay upon my wrist. I didn't want it to be like this. Relationships are not fun they are a necessity. A sick obbession that laud within me. I smile through a thousand tears. I laugh with a million fears. I am my own worst enemy. I am doomed my eternal need to be loved. The feelings of lonelyness haunt my every thoughts. Visions of blood rush my brain and it feels as if I've been shot. And I only have but one thought , Hello Darkness