Who?What?Why?

Growing up whenever somebody spoke about mental illness my mind quickly started playing images of Angelina Jolie and Winona Ryder in Girl Interupted. I never understood how anybody could let themselves get so sad that they could not function. I thought they were being dramatic and needed to suck it up. I thought this way for most of my life until i was diagnosed with TWO mental disorders for the low low price of a compelete mental breakdown.I started freaking out because I was normal in my mind. I loved fashion I was voted best dressed in highschool. I was going to my dream art school and had a great relationship with my highschool sweetheart of 4 years. Then my boyfriend leaves me for another girl I can't focus in school and I find myself anti social. But that doesn't mean I'm crazy right? Everybody has those weeks in the words of Audrey Hepburn when you get a case of the mean reds. But that doesn't mean they should lock me up in the crazy house and
throw away the key! Now I must say I am withholding one vital piece of my crazy puzzle. I am also a cutter. Yeah I know this is a unhealthy coping mechanism but it's the only thing that relieves my stress! I've been cutting for 7 years. If I got into an argument with my boyfriend I cut, lost a diamond earring cut cut cut, a women beats me to the last pair of size 8 Balmain sandal heels, you guessed it I cut , I tore my skin up. I still thought it was normal . I finally realized I had a problem when I cut myself 82 times in 2 days on my leg after my boyfriend left me for another perfectly sane chick. I was diagnosed with severe depression and an anxiety disorder. This was 2 months ago. I am writing this blog to provide help and a better understanding of people with mental illness. I want people to know that crazy people can be fashionable , fun and enjoy life better than the rest of them . We just have more obstacles to face in controlling our moods.
Thank god for drugs and my therapist. So I have embraced my craziness and decided to redo my whole life including my wardrobe to accomadate my new crazy life! So I say Insanity is the new black !